Getting Started - Again

Well here I go again. Another New Year's resolution. I resolve to lose weight....again. I have a very long history of losing weight and gaining it back again. A very good friend of mine suggested that my "inner brat" is not happy and is getting the better of me. She explianed that if I don't sit and really listen to what is bothering my inner brat she will continue to tantum and want to eat everything in sight. So...this blog is document my journey towards apeasing my inner brat and taking control over my weight and my health.

I also have a secondary motive to lose weight and get as healthy as possible~

I have always known that I was meant to be a mommy. I have waited years and years to set the stage for my little one. I have always believed that I wanted my children to have the best start possible so I have gone to school to be a child psychologist, I chose a man who is not only my soul mate but who will also be an amazing father to my children, I have worked to get a home and set us up financially so that I can provide the best for my children. Finally, last June (2010) my husband and I decided it was time to start trying for our first child. We tried for several months unsuccessfully and finally in October (2010) we got our first positive pregnancy test!!! We were so happy!!! However, on December 10, 2010 our little angel went to meet Jesus. It was a devastating loss. I was so frustrated that I had waited so long for the perfect timing and had done everything right and we lost our precious baby. We were told to wait 3 months before trying again so sometime in March we will start our journey over again. It has been a tough road so far but I still hold out hope that we will be blessed with another little one to love and a successful second pregnancy. This is why it is so important for me to focus on myself right now and get my mind and body in the best place possible.