Gaining Momentum and Losing Weight

I have not posted in about 2 weeks. In the last two weeks my inner brat and I have been really up and down. After I lost my little Peanut I grieved for the next week and my inner brat definitely took over. I was not blogging and I was eating pretty much everything in sight. However, she and I sat down and had a good talk (and cry) about how I was feeling and I was able to help her realize that she really did want to be healthy. So...In the last week my brat and I have been pretty simpatico.

I have found that it is really important to still reward my inner brat for a job well done (just not with food). So, I’ve been letting her go to bed early and have time with her favorite TV programs. She is also really enjoying the weight loss and looking and feeling better!!! J

So far now I am down 7 pounds and feeling good about it.  I have been having my Herbalife shakes and then a healthy dinner with lean meats and lots of veggies. I’m still struggling with keeping active so that is my next goal.

Still having to wait to try again for a baby and feeling impatient. However, I have really been forced to lean on God and trust in his timing. I guess that is one of the blessings of going through trying times…there is not much left to distract you from realizing how much you really need God. It feels pretty good to be making him my main focus again. He is really growing me through these experiences.

I’ve been listening to “Before the Morning” by Josh Wilson a lot lately.  Here are some of the lyrics that have been a comfort to me:

Would you dare, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain that you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming.

Come on, you’ve got to wait for the light.
Press on and just fight the good fight,
because the pain you've been feeling,
is just the hurt before the healing.

The pain you've been feeling,
is just the dark before the morning

These words remind me that I’ve been through tough times before and I’ve always made it through to the other side where there is Joy and good things again.